i scare myself

 i love you, as much as friends can love eachother, i love you

say  I  if u still have a LJ account :S

ararara  im realllllllllllllllllllllly excited for this hike
rararara

and what a day may i say
haha :D

dear Kell
ANSWER YOUR PHONE
love Orr








:)

 so guys.....im not even halfway throo kite runner and i havce decided it is frikkin AMAZING
miss u people.!
lee im sooooo excited for tomorrow
candles :D
yay :D
ok
im done
lol
c u 
guys 
sooon?
please? i
miss people
:D:C:F:E:R:T:U:H:N:K:I 
8)
o and i mite b slightly different next time u see me :p
unless u c me in the next 5 days
ill b alittle different
but no alot.....
:D
ok now i am ACTUALLY done :P

some people are sooo rude
im sorry if its hard to understand 
but fucking accept it
u probably did the same thing
no actually 
u DID the EXACT same thing
THE OTHER FUCKING DAY
geeez
.

yeah so its  umm 10:34 now
doosh bag >:\

omgosh im actually reealllly excited :D

 number 7 blue (gerard) prances around the court wif greasy hair
LMAO
twas funny
or i thot it was
lol
xox

 ok the truth is i dont know
everythings getting better
well i thought it was
and before i could just blame my bad moods on anything cause everything was just crap
but it isnt anymore
yet im still in bad moods
i dont get it
i dont want to be in bad moods cause noone wants to be with me when im in a bad mood so why do i still get into them
I JUST DONT FUCKING GET IT
cant i just be normal
so anyway i apologise in advance for any stupid-ness because i love you ALL of you but i still dont seem happy 
but i am
maybe i just cant be happy for long periods of time
but thats impossible and a whole lot of bullshit
so again
...sorry